KassiopeiaKitten

Wow it's been like a year since I last made a journal..

I know I forget to post here, I need to get back here, but mental health is a real long road, you know?

Thanks.

So I am for real considering opening actual money commissions now? Because since I just turned 20 Friday (thank you to those who wished me a happy birthday) I'd like to start saving money to be able to move a couple states over to Idaho to live with my partner Star, we could really use the support from eachother, especially Star. Then, after I'm settled with them I'd like to start saving money as soon as possible to help our partner Whirl come down from Scotland. 

If and when I do open commissions I will likely do so through Ko-Fi to help with my goal of how much money I may need to get to Star. This means I'd do commissions for Kirby, Pokèmon, Sonic, and Transformers as well as original characters if I do open them. Lemme know if you'd be interested~

Mmmm I know I haven't been uploading much and when I do it's only Transformers, I'm actually trying to get back into Sonic right now because I've reached a point where its getting hard to draw anything- In other words motivation is at an all time low....

There's also depression kicking my aft, so yeah, that's fun right?? Makes it really hard to feel sympathy a lot or identify my emotions. Ahhhh and let's not forget how ridiculously possessive I can get of fictional characters, it's terrible really. I'm pathetic.
This is turning into a vent oops.
Ah well. 

I..guess I didn't really have much to say, not much really goes on in my life unfortunately, so yeah.

I play Knockout the worst when shipping is involved I make him so soft. Like I have an ask/RP blog for him on Tumblr and I happen to pair him up with the entire Trine and he got so soft for my friend's Skywarp so fast like noooo- Knockout you're supposed to be a narcissistic aft. But ahhhhhhh fluff RPing. But the way I make Knockout is he really wants to help people who are mistreated, mostly leaning towards those he is attracted to- Examples being Breakdown, Starscream, Skywarp on Tumblr. If he doesn't have an interest in you he could honestly care less, just leave him alone and let him do his job.

I actually play Knockout in two different Discord(one public, one private) servers and on Tumblr but he's really only mostly himself in one of the Discords. I say mostly because in the public server he got experimented on with Dark Energon and Synth-En by another Decepticon medic so he's kind of locked in a cell as a vampire, but other than that he's himself, he even has Breakdown there~ 
And the private Discord server is the one with all the ship children so that place got blown out of character really fast with everyone but that place didn't start out serious, nobody expected to ever get serious either. And it's really hard to keep Knockout in character there since there was my first time playing him so I started out bad and absolutely screwed his life over by making him choose poor life decisions.. Not to mention Cybertron was revived and the war ended through a Peace Treaty, Megatron getting Kaon, Starscream getting Vos, etc.
My KO ask/RP blog is a sort of AU version of Knockout in which he somehow managed to get infected by a Vampire Terrorcon after the war ended, though he is not necessarily undead, think of it more in Airachnid’s case where she’d only been grazed but it still affected her so he still has full control over himself but still burns fuel at an alarming rate. If I'm in the right mindset I can play him really well. He's also Neutral now.

I might actually also get to RP another AU involving KO and the Trine before the war with Cybertron trying to win over Velocitron, that Knockout would be so much different than any other KO I've ever played and I think it'd be good practice playing his character.

So many different KOs to keep track of..... I love them.
But at the same time-
Me @ my portrayal of KO:
 

Ahhhhh sorry for this but thanks to anyone who actually went through the work of reading me ramble while at school.

Ahhhhh so yeah I'm still in Transformers Hell and it makes it kinda hard to focus on any other fandom, I apologize for that for anyone who has watched me for non-TF stuff, thank you for being patient with me.

So I kinda wanted to talk about an OC I'm making for TF, or perhaps a couple?
I'm mainly trying to design an OC I've named Diamond Dust- She's primarily a neutral seeker with a trine (profession undecided) but in an AU for Knockout on Velocitron she's an Automobile who works as a courier sending information back and forth for Knockout(Velocitron's delegate like in the IDW comics). Her trine members are owned by my friends Star and Whirl on this TF Discord RP server I'm a part of. Her design will be based on TFP Starscream.
Another OC I wish to design is an Automobile named Lollipop who is/was a bartender on Velocitron, I don't have much information on her yet though.

Since I mentioned the Transformers Discord server I am a part of I'd like to add that I am a mod there and if you're alright with RPing in a somewhat public chat (it was recently cleared of inactive members) or just want to talk about TF and maybe make some friends feel free to send me a note asking for an invite link, I'd be happy to give you one~ You can claim up to 5 official characters to play as and obviously don't have a limit on OCs. I currently only RP Knockout there but Diamond Dust should hopefully come around in the future.
*I would like to mention that we could really use some Autobots in there, the Decepticons are really taking over haha, but obviously you don't have to play an Autobot, you can be whoever you wish so long as they aren't taken~ 
*The ship children I have uploaded for Knockout here stating they are a part of a Discord server is not the same as this somewhat public one and is a completely private chat. Any of the ship children uploaded here will not be considered related to their parent if they do appear in the chat you will be invited to.

Another place you may contact me is on my Tumblr which you can find here!